Everythings Change

2012

2011-12-31T00:40:00.001-08:00

Time past

2011-04-05T21:49:00.000-07:00

Yesterday i was told by my friend that we have already past 2 years ago after form 6. When that i was shocked when i heard what she said to me.I was wondering why time can past so fast as i don't the heart to accept the truth. I thought i have just finish form 6 only and don't wonder that i have been in local-U for 2years already.

In this 2 years pass, i couldn't forget what was happened last 2 years and the happiness memories that we have last time.. Seriously it hard, but the only thing that depressed me is we seldom contact to each others among the friends. During holiday i dunno y i don't have the mood to hang out instead to stay at home alone. Maybe it is more comfortable i think, i used the time to pass with my family members as i could.I'm have the heart to help my father compare to last time that don't want to help him as once.But i will try my heart to go hang out with those who is my best friends.

In this 2 years, i have busy with those crazing assignment and exam. Those stuffs make me don't have the time to think much. after coming in to uni, i realize that how people can take granted to the benefits and betray their friends. I realized among all friends doesn't means can be treated as friends. There have no point to waste these kind of time to care what others people have said about as long as i'm happy with my decision.

再讲你啊！

2011-03-09T22:51:00.000-08:00

那你和她有什么分别呢？

我就是这样的

对人不对事

你自己反省啦！

和你讲话会很累。

you are so....

2011-03-07T07:27:00.000-08:00

Contradictions

Fake

limitation

2011-03-03T11:23:00.001-08:00

Everyone have the limit.

If u over my limitation, i'm sure you will kena from me.

Now i already have the high level of api to release.

if u come, get prepare for yourself.

My feeling

2011-03-03T11:06:00.001-08:00

TIRED

I have already get bored of this kind of life.

People asked me "don't care too much"

"It's better for me to forget it rather than get angry to others."

"It's not worth at all to get angry."

But to be frank, it's hard for me to overcome it by myself although it's a small stuffs which might others' think.

i have already get bored to contribute always.

It's is not worth for me to contribute as much for those who din appreciate it at all.

It's fair for us who always contribute?

i have get bored of this kind of life

and being tired.

How would it be on my future?

2011-02-18T23:32:00.000-08:00

i 'm get bored with the stress life that i having now.

and i don't wish it will continue in the rest of my life

Being as an accounting students it's normal already will full with stress and cases to settle.

although i was told by my parents accounting field create more future.

it is true?? definitely it is true.

but is it the life that i wish for?

i was wondering what it's going to be in my future?

is it have a better salary or being interesting in this field??

am i right with the path that i have been taken now??

all this conflict appear in my mind...

i have so busy with this kind of life when i'm study.

so i was wondering how going to be on my work life later?

Am I right??

2011-02-14T19:44:00.001-08:00

时间长了，不去联系，感情真的会变淡…

我始终很相信这句话！

有些人，总是会慢慢的淡出你的世界，慢慢的在你的记忆里模糊…

因为时间，因为距离，因为不联系…

朋友说，她的手机成了一个闹钟，电话是接不到的，短信只是一个月偶尔的收到…这也是大多数人的现状！

FB上，清一色的手机挂着，我隐身着，你看不见，你隐身着，我亦看不见，很多人宁愿找些陌生人或者不熟悉的人聊天，也不愿意和以前的好朋友聊天。

不知道聊什么，也不知道从何聊起…时间长了，渐渐的，疏远了，陌生了…

虽然曾经彼此之间很熟悉，但是现在却多了一层隔阂，FB上见面只剩下一个简单的“最近好吗？”“恩，还好，就那样”，没有下文了…

很多时候都是开着FB，看着那么多的朋友在线，却只会对着屏幕发呆，因为不知道说什么…

多长时间没和朋友们发短信了？多长时间没和朋友们打电话了？又多长时间没约上几个好友出来聚聚了？

是什么？让大家越来越疏远了。

是什么？让大家越来越淡漠了？

是什么？让曾经彼此之间很要好的朋友，如今即使见了面也没有什么话说了…

时间、距离、不联系…是感情最可怕的敌人！

时间久了，感情会变淡。距离长了，感情会疏远！这是真真切切的，你我不可逆转的…

No plastic bag and polystyrene in Penang

2011-01-22T07:21:00.000-08:00

From 1st of January 2011 onwards, Penang(Malaysia) became the 1st state in Malaysia which ban plastic and polystyrene at hypermarket, supermarket and even the hawker stall.

Some of them might think whether this event is bringing benefit or problem? A consumer, said it was troublesome to buy the 20-sen plastic bags and would be a problem to last-minute shoppers and foreign tourists who do not come prepared with their own canvass or cloth bags when heading to hypermarkets in Penang.

From my own side, i think it actually brings benefit to our mother earth.As we know, there are a lot of changes in weather of our earth such as flooding, earthquakes,global warming. All of this actually came from human being,people wasted the plastics and used polystyrene which will seriously affect the environment.

So, as a conclusion i definitely support this events although it's brings some trouble for us but it wasn't a big problem.A small action might change and save the environment, why don't we think the solution to save the earth rather than complaint it?

2011

2010-03-20T22:16:00.001-07:00

wah!!.. i have long time din update my blog..

since now i m a little bit free so i decided to post some in my profile..
wah!!! almost wanna reach 1 year i have been leave my hometown to other state..
the busy life in university which were full of tutorial, assignment and the worst is exam...
all this things almost wanna make me damn crazy with my current life..
all of this condition make me forget the pain of leaving my hometown.
i could adapt it myself..
i didn't cry alone even the raining day..

i become strong..
but as i think its hard 4 me to overcome it
because i m a person who very slow to receive the environment changes..
but everythings is change
i change to be more mature
mayb they all still think i m like a child.
i change to be more independent
i change to be more understand PEOPLE..
but the changes of somethings that i wont like..
i hate the time pass very fast..
i hate the forgotten of pass memories..
i hate we not that close that last time..
i hate we have boundaries when we are in conversation
i hate i have nothing to talk to u all..
and the last i hate i have over teenagers period.
i really hope everythings will remains the same..

include the relationship between us..

everything was changed

The passing of time full with tutorial and exam

allowed me to forget you

i was asked my my friend

did you still have the feeling to him

i was wondering what answer i gonna give

because i really dunno what answer i can said

sometime i will remember the time we have together

the memories are always in my mind.

I taught the other guys maybe can let me forget the existing of you

But so far i couldn't find it..

and i hoping one day i will treat you as my good friend only is enough.

although we live very near but we can't manage to meet up together

is not i don't want is because i don't dare to face you

maybe i'm the one who bertepuk tangan sebelah tak berbunyi...

My Pet

2009-11-08T03:20:00.000-08:00

When i saw these pictures, i have think back to my dog that pass away 1 year ago.

Since From 4 i have a cute pet which is dog dog.Its really a cute dog, he is a male dog. The colour of his skin is jz like this colour which is in brown colour.I called him A-wong. He play an important in my life.Knowing that i very scare being alone at house alone especially evening and heavy rain.He accompany me when i feel alone. He accompany me when i study.I like to use my scooter fetch him go hang out. Sometimes i like to kacau him by tread his tails.hahhahaha... Sometimes i like bully him. i deliberate don give him eat his dinner by putting the dinner after my house gate. So, he jz can see but cant eat...hahhahaaa.I like to see his action to pull the dinner by using his hand...

But unfortunately, he was pass away 1 year ago. When that time i really very sad.He have to leave me forever.

There are thousand of miss him while i saw these pictures although these pictures are not him.

Pulau Bidong

2009-11-02T21:58:00.000-08:00

My school which is University Malaysia Terengganu was held an activity to the new students of UMT. This program is called Survival Laut which means the participants shouldn't take any chemical stuffs going to that island. These are include shampoo, body shampoo, face facial and sun blocked.This program is jz like Robinson Crusoe who were lived in an island that without any facilities.In this program, students were not entitle to bath. And the worst things is they have to sleep in camps together with the sand.They organized many activities during that three days such as snorkeling, canoeing, hiking and fishing. All of thats were sea activities.Actually, it was quite wonderful program but the only thing that i cant tahan is i was no bath for three days.GOSH...

Here are some pictures of Pulau Bidong.There are quite nice environments..

RAIN

2009-10-31T09:50:00.000-07:00

rain rain and rain

rain equal moody for me

although i like it before

but now

raining make me feel alone

scare the thunder

facing alone the thunder

not like last time

can shout with sister

raining = moody/emo

today

i homesick again

crying alone whole day

dunno why

miss PENANG very much

my family

my friend

miss u guys

thousand of words kinda difficult to said it out

the only thing i know

i have many stuff wanna said out

complaint

lament

murmur

a lots...........

MISS U GUYS

我爱你

2009-10-31T05:00:00.000-07:00

母親，我怎麼讓你等了那麼久
文／劉繼榮

母親真的老了，變得孩子般纏人，每次打電話，總是滿懷熱誠地問：「你什麼時候回家？」

且不說相隔一千多里路，要轉三次車，光是工作、孩子已經讓我分身無術，哪裡還抽得出時間回家。

母親的耳朵不好，我解釋了半天，她仍舊熱切地問：「你什麼時候能回來？」幾次三番，我終於沒有了耐心，在電話裏衝母親大聲嚷嚷，她終於聽明白，默默掛了電話。

隔幾天，母親又問同樣的問題，只是那語調怯怯地，沒有了底氣。

像個不甘心的孩子，明知問了也是白問，可就是忍不住。

我心一軟，沉吟了一下。母親見我沒有煩，立刻開心起來。

她欣喜地向我描述：「後院的石榴都開花了，西瓜快熟了，你回來吧。」

我為難地說：「那麼忙，怎麼能請得上假呢！」

她急急地說：「你就說媽媽得了癌，只有半年的活頭了！」

我立刻責怪她胡說，她呵呵地笑了。

小時候，每逢颳風下雨，我不想去上學，便裝肚子疼，被母親識破，挨了一頓好罵。

現在老了，她反而教著女兒說謊了，我又好氣又好笑。
這樣的問答不停地重複著，我終於不忍心，告訴她下個月一定回去，母親竟高興得哽咽起來。

可不知怎麼了，永遠都有忙不完的事，每件事都比回家重要，最後，到底沒能回去。

電話那頭的母親，仿佛沒有力氣再說一個字，我滿懷內疚：「媽，生氣了吧？」

母親這一回聽真了，她連忙說：「孩子，我沒有生你的氣，我知道你忙。」

可是沒幾天，母親的電話催得越發緊了。

她說，葡萄熟了，梨熟了，快回來吃吧。

我說，有什麼稀罕，這裏滿大街都是，花個十元八元就能吃個夠。

母親不高興了，我又耐下性子來哄她：

「不過，那些東西都是化肥和農藥餵大的，哪有你種的好呢。」母親得意地笑起來。

星期六那天，氣溫特別高，我不敢出門，開了空調在家裏呆著。

孩子嚷嚷雪糕沒了，我只好下樓去超市買。

在暑氣蒸騰的街頭，我忽然就看見了母親的背影。

看樣子她剛下車，胳膊上挎著個籃子，

背上背著沉甸甸的袋子，她彎著腰，左躲右閃著，怕別人碰了她的東西。

在擁擠的人流裏，母親每走一步都很吃力。

我大聲地叫她，她急急抬起滿是熱汗的臉，四處尋找，看見我走過來，竟驚喜地說不出話來。

一回到家，母親就喜滋滋地往外捧那些東西。

她的手青筋暴露，十指上都纏著膠布，手背上有結了痂的血口子。

母親笑著對我說：「吃呀，你快吃呀，這全是我挑出來的。」

我這沒有出過遠門的母親，只為著我的一句話，便千里迢迢地趕了來。

她坐的是最便宜、沒有空調的客車，車上又熱又擠，但那些水靈靈的葡萄和梨子都完好無損。

我想像不出，她一路上是如何過來的，我只知道，在這世上，凡有母親的地方就有奇蹟。

母親只住了三天，她說我太辛苦，起早貪黑地上班，還要照顧孩子，她乾著急卻幫不上忙。

城裏的廚房設施，她一樣也不敢碰，是怕弄壞了。

她自己悄悄去訂了票，又悄悄地一個人走。

才回去一星期，母親又說想我了，不住地催我回家。

我苦笑：「媽，你再耐心一些吧！」

第二天，我接到姨媽的電話：「你媽媽病了，你快回來吧。」

我急得眼前發黑，淚眼婆娑地奔到車站，趕上了最後一趟車。

一路上，我心裏不住地祈禱。

我希望這是母親騙我的，我希望她好好的。

我願意聽她的嘮叨，願意吃光她給我做的所有飯菜，願意經常抽空來看她。

此時, 我才知道，人活到八十歲也是需要母親的。

車子終於到了村口，母親小跑著過來，滿臉的笑。

我抱住她，又想哭又想笑，嗔怪道：「你說什麼不好，說自己有病，虧你想得出！」

受了責備的母親，仍然無限地歡喜，她只是想看到我。

母親樂呵呵地忙進忙出，擺了一桌子好吃的東西，等著我的誇獎。

我毫不留情地批評：「紅豆粥煮糊了；水煎包子的皮太厚；滷肉味道太鹹。」

母親的笑容頓時變得尷尬，她無奈地搔著頭。

我心裏暗笑，我知道一旦我說什麼東西好吃，母親非得逼我吃一大堆，走的時候還要帶上，

就這樣，我被她餵得肥肥白白，怎麼都瘦不下去。

而且，不貶低她，我怎麼有機會佔領灶台呢？

我給母親做飯，跟她聊天，母親長時間地凝視著我，眼裏滿是疼愛。

無論我說什麼，她都虔誠地半張著嘴，側著耳朵凝神地聽，就連午睡，她也坐在床邊，笑咪咪地看著我。

我說：「既然這麼疼我，為什麼不跟著我住呢？」她說住不慣城裏的高樓。

沒呆幾天，我就急著要回去，母親苦苦要求我再住一天。

她說，今早已託人到城裏買菜了，一會兒準能回來，她一定要好好給我做頓飯。

縣城離這兒九十多里路，母親要把所有她認為好吃的東西都弄回來，讓我吃下去，她才能心安。
從姨媽家回來的時候，母親精心準備的菜餚，終於端上了桌，

我不禁驚詫～魚鱗沒有刮盡、雞塊上是細密的雞毛、香油金針菇裏居然有頭髮絲。

無論是葷的還是素的，都讓人無法下箸。

母親年輕時那麼愛乾淨，如今老了竟邋遢得這樣。

母親見我挑來9 1去就是不吃，她心疼地妥協了，送我去坐夜班車。

天很黑，母親挽著我的胳膊。她說，你走不慣鄉下的路。

她陪我上了車，不住地囑咐東囑咐西，車子都開了，才急著下去，衣角卻被車門夾住，險些摔倒。

我哽咽著，趴在車窗上大叫：「媽，媽，你小心些！」

她沒聽清楚，邊追著車跑邊喊：「孩子，我沒有生你的氣，我知道你忙！」

這一回，母親仿佛滿足了，她竟沒有再催過我回家，只是不斷地對我說些開心的事：

「家裏又添了隻很乖的小牛犢；明開春，她要在院子裏種好多好多的花。」

聽著聽著，我心裏一片溫暖。

到年底，我又接到姨媽的電話。

她說：「你媽媽病了，快回來吧。」

我哪裡相信，我們前天才通的話，母親說自己很好，叫我不要掛念。

姨媽只是不住地催我，半信半疑的我還是回去了，並且買了一大袋母親愛吃的油糕。

車到村頭的時候，我伸長脖子張望著，母親沒來接我，我心裏忽地就有了種不祥的預感。

姨媽告訴我，給我打電話的時候，母親就已經不在了，她走得很安詳。

半年前，母親就被診斷出了癌症，只是她沒有告訴任何人，仍和平常一樣樂呵呵地忙裏忙外，

並且把自己的後事都安排妥當了。

姨媽還告訴我，母親老早就患了眼疾，看東西很費勁。

我緊緊地把那袋油糕抱在胸前，一顆心仿佛被人挖走。

原來，母親知道自己剩下的日子不多了，才不住地打電話叫我回家，

她想再多看我幾眼，再和我多說幾句話。

原來，我挑剔著不肯下箸的飯菜，是她在視力模糊的情況下做的，我是多麼的粗心！

我走的那個晚上，她一個人是如何摸索到家，她跌倒了沒有，我永遠都無從知道了。

母親，在生命最後的時光裏，還快樂地告訴我，牽牛花爬滿了舊煙囪，扁豆花開得像我小時候穿的紫衣裳。

你留下所有的愛，所有的溫暖，然後安靜地離開。

我知道，你是這世上唯一不會生我氣的人，唯一肯永遠等著我的人，

也就是仗著這份寵愛，我才敢讓你等了那麼久。

…可是，母親，我真的有那麼忙嗎？

朋友:
時間許可時,請多與老人家聯繫與探望, 不要以"忙","煩"做藉口,
人生只有數十年的光景,生生不息,父母走過的,自己也一樣會經歷,子女也同樣會,
有句"樹欲靜而風不止,子欲養而親不在",的確是"借鏡".
有老人家還在的朋友,多多聯繫與探望吧!別留遺憾喔!!!
與您共勉之!!!

Uni Life

2009-10-15T09:43:00.000-07:00

I tot i m not ok with my new environment at 1st.

I always being alone

I think this is the best way to feel better to my life

Am i right???

No!! I'm wrong.

This is not my style.

I prefer noisy.

Don worried me.

This is my 1st perception

I have tried all my best to get in the enjoying life.

Finally i can do it.

Swee Heong, Zi Yin and Shelly.

Don worried me over here.

Every things going smooth over here.

Come!i have knew a few new friend at my uni.

Lets me introduce them.

hahhaha...

Chun Chin

He is coming from penang too.He is a very nice guy that always talking nonsense. But sometime his words can be listen too. A very noisy guy and have a lots of argument.lol...

A quite funny person that i have been meets.He is a guy which quite thinking "kuning".hahhah... No other word can describe him already.But i m sad because he said he

will be going to leave UMT life... Sob... Sob... (T.T)

Yi Jun

He is come from Ipoh,Perak.One of the noisy

guy in my gang, but he is better than Chun Chin.At least, he are less complaint than chun chin.He sometime like to do special things at the crowded for instance shouting suddenly when everyone silent.AWESOME leh???

Jaime-Liew Kwan Lim

She is a girl. hahhah... Of course lah, nonsense...She is from Seremban. She is the one of our member that who dunno hokkien, so everytime we wanna said she was ill, then we can change our channel to HOKKIEN. hahhaha....She scare pai sei 1. For those who do some pai sei things sure she will give u some pandangan sinis then "advice" not to do this so.And this picture she is capture with a very CUTE girl which is me lah...hahhahah(beh pai sei).

Teik Chew

He is penang too. He is from matriculation school. Quite a intelligence guys, he get his CGPA for matric is 3.95...( incredible). He quite a good leader for our group assignments and everytimes he is the fastest who finish all the assignments and tutorials.hahhahhah...(so that we can copy him 1, joking joking).

Wan tian

She is from Penang too...In our gang we call her as HO Wan "Tiang". She is ok with this name oso, she din have any complaint with the name we gave. But she have a lot of complaint to the school.... haizz... thats why our gang give an impression to others like a siao gang...

Phaik Chin

haiz... She is from penang too..(bored)

We call her in "chee phek chek"(translate to hokkien).She oso din mind the name we gave too.. really a good sister hood with HO wan Tiang.If u heard her laugh sure you have a pandangan sinis to her.Because make me think to kuning side... haiz... She is a good treasurer, everytimes she will handle all the financial part if we organize some activity.

Kok Phing

hahhaaa...He is come from Perak.We call he as "kopi pheng".At first we tot he is typical boy that don have a lots of voice.But..人不可冒像...He quite a cakap banyak oso, like a bird talking non stop.he like to perli people oso...but not that much as Chun Chin.Chun chin is his Sifu.This is why our gang are given a perception as SIAO gang.

Past

2009-10-15T01:43:00.000-07:00

I 'm sad

our relationship not like previous

sadness

you keep it

you din tell me wat happen to u?

the only thing you do is having alone with ur problem

keeping quiet, quiet and quiet

sadness that can't be spoken

T.T

Mayb i m wrong

Mayb i din realise wat happen to u

Sorry!

Dear my lovely Friend

2009-09-28T00:02:00.000-07:00

Boo Tatt

U have leaved to Australia around half year already since March.

i very miss u.

i love to see u when u drive "yeng"

wahhahhah...

love to see ur blur and steam face

but as i know u have change your style

its good things also too changing ourself become more mature.

When u r coming back??

miss u so much...

swee heong , zi yin and me

miss u so much

Oh yea!!! i 4 gt to wish u your birthday.

i know which day

i jz 4gt to wish u nia...

Best wish from us to u

wish u good luck all the best.

drifting away

2009-09-06T00:59:00.001-07:00

"my friend,why have you drifted so far away?All motion is relative,maybe its you who have moved away by standing still"

how to describe hooili's personality??

2009-08-24T05:34:00.000-07:00

how to describe leh???

lovable,huggable hooili has a young child's innocence and sense of wonder.

good nature and naive.But she lacks in sophisticated understanding,she more than makes up for with imagination.her simple life approach to problems is often the most successful

one word only to describe

CUTE

holiday

2009-08-22T01:56:00.000-07:00

sitting in hostel room whole day

nothing to do

just a bit emo today

download all my idol songs

which is david tao

listen to his songs

quite a bit comfortable back my feeling.

y emo???

i oso dunno

maybe not willing went back to uni kua...

but stay in penang doesn't means happy oso...

during holiday

i often stay in home..

seldom went hang out with my fren

although hang out

that's not fun like last time

definitely long time din see

sure will not have much to talk

dunno

mayb we have growth

become mature

doesn't like last time

sometime have to take care our behavior

cos we r not children already.

watch movie wif my fren during holiday

but not that much as i expect before holiday

due to my plan

i decide

go to box office and select all the movie that i want to watch

then watch it finish in 1 day only..

but

impossible lah...

nobody will accompany me 1

jz have chance to watch 2 movie

which is G.I.JOE

and The Taking of Pelham 123

planning to watch The Proposal when the last day in Penang

manatau no ticket provided early in the morning

appreciated that i din went out always during holiday

i gt time to spend more with my family

thanks god.

i have safely reach t'ganu.

Boring Life

2009-08-07T21:12:00.000-07:00

stil have another 1 weektime
then i will be going back to my hometown which is Penang
kinda a interesting feeling like wanna fly back without aeroplane
hahhaha... ridiculous

i m getting worried now...
stil considering whether wanna continue my study in this uni
i swear i don even enjoy life over here...
wat to do??
seeing my fren can go oversea study
kanda a bit jealous
but i sure i will be getting very very boring n feeling lonely if i study there

why???
it different culture, language n so on
but it's the way that we can learn independent
of course i m here can learn lots of stuff
such as wash my cloth wif my own hand everyday
control my own pocket money so that i wont spend out of my budget
but...

i cant really find any thing that i can learn over uni here
i mean in academic
it can said all lecturer here are MALAYs
my english teacher can communicate wif her student in malay
how the student going to learn international language???
my management teacher always talking nonsense in the class
without teaching anythings to us which is relevant to the course that we take..

CONSIDERING
should i take private uni is better??
i really scare it will bring disappointed to my parents
but 4 years
can i overcome??

i hope so

Sorry

2009-07-19T02:40:00.001-07:00

sitting alone on the beach
thinking wat she told me in the message
thinking wat i have done to u
that made u feel hurt
i sincerly appologies
i don even dare to sms n face u...
the only word i can tel u is SORRY

u keep telling me u are ok
and keep telling me dun blame uself
i tel u the truth i cant make it.

the only thing i can tel u is ...
I M SORRY

Daily Guidance(08/06/09)

2009-07-08T01:48:00.000-07:00

"Iron, when heated in the flames an pounded,

becomes a fine sword .

Youth should seek training.

engaging whole heartedly in a great struggle

will build a foundation for victory"

Leave alone

2009-07-05T22:30:00.001-07:00

27 June 2009 6pm

going to Sungai Ara

to juin liang tuition centre there

coz he wanna had a dinner wif me then

drop me at sungai Nibong bus terminal...

he said wanna bring me eat bak kut teh

cz over terengganu i cant find any of khinzir...

but at the end he bring me eat hawker stall food pulak...

haizzz....

but i appreciated i gt such good fren...

thanks...

when reached bus terminal....

i tot i will leave alone when i received the bus ticket...

but suddenly my best fren:

zi yin

swee heong

appear in front of me..

i shocked

i din expected they all will come sending me...

when that time i very happy

they all help me carried out all my luggages..

thanks dear...

act i very assure that i m not willing to leave

but no choice this is my own decision

going to terengganu to study...

they always console me

"this is jz a part of our life,

its jz a beginning,

u should appreciated that u r accepted by local university..."

FINALLY

i have to leave....

i went up the bus wif exciting feeling...

act in my heart i really not willing to leave..

i have to ge ge act lik excited going to there...

the purpose i do that is prevent they all cry out...

i wave hand to them

n said bye bye to them...

saying alone inside the bus...

"zi yin bye bye,

swee heong bye bye,

lay fang bye bye,

ling xiang bye bye,

juin liang bye bye,

n the last is mummy,papa,mei mei,ah ma

bye bye..."

Then while i saying bye bye to them,

my tears start drop...

when that time i such lik wanna give up d n not going

so far to study...

but i suddenlly recall back the water bottle that ziyin gave me...

on the bottle there gt show "don give up".

so i keep back n continue go to terengganu.

wish that i can wearing a "squre cap" coming back to Penang.

My parents sure will proud of me...

Y my parents din follow me go terengganu???

Y i must going there alone???

if i going wif my parents sure will less down my burden

at least gt ppl can help me carry my luggages.

act i very sad when whole bus student gt ppl accompany them go Umt.

but no choice i have to more independent...

my mum said she wanna accompany me go..

but i said never mind i can go alone..

"mum, don worry me...'

Act i more worried them

if dunno how to go back penang

cz almost here are malays n they even don understand malays languages..

means i more worried abt them n always asking myself if they come wif me

" how they going back to penang??"

" are they reach d??"

"are they lost??"

lots of questions sure will appear on my mind...

in other words

i willing to leave alone...

Going terengganu road r staff

the road r not straight like high-ways.

i cant sleep sweet in the bus there

so when i awake i sure will recall back all the sweet memories

that i have in penang.

a while only my tears start drop again...

when zi yin call, i almost wanna cry out d...

but i told my self i have to strong.

she told me she cried jz now

when i leave.

manatau i go console her pulak...

i almost wanna cry out when she call me...

i call her quickly hang up the call..

i dun 1 let her noe i wanna cry d...

coming terengganu i have cry a lots...

i seldom cry

cz i like smile..

i like to make all of my fren happy...

i tot i will be strong...

manatau i cant...

u all face always appear on my mind...

feeling alone......

cant settle down my feeling yet...

Daily Guidance SGM(6/7/09)

2009-07-05T22:25:00.000-07:00

The key to winning in any endeavor is to first win over oneself.
We must win:-

over cowardice
over the tendency to give up
over laziness

2009-04-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

LIFE : Carrot, Egg or Coffee Bean???

A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee...

You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life

and how things were so hard for her.

She did not know how she was going tomake it and wanted to give up,

She was tired of fighting and struggling.

It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen.

She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire.

Soon the pots came to boil.

In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs,

and in the last she placed ground coffee beans.

She let them sit and boil without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners.
She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl.
She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl.
Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her daughter, she asked,
' Tell me what you see?
''Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots.
She did and noted that they were soft.
The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it.
After pulling off the shell, she observed,the hard boiled egg.
Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee.
The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.

The daughter then asked,
'What does it mean, mother?'
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting.

However, after being subjected to the boiling water,
it softened and became weak.
The egg had been fragile.
Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior,
but after sitting through the boiling water,
its inside became hardened.
The ground coffee beans were unique, however.
After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

Which are you?'
she asked her daughter.
'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond?

Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean
Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong,
but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat?

Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial,

have I become hardened and stiff?
Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean?

The bean actually changes the hot water

the very circumstance that brings the pain.

When the water gets hot,it releases the fragrance and flavor.

If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.
When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level?

How do you handle adversity?

Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everythingthey just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;

you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling

Live your life so at the end,

you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

That why life is unpredictable but u can change it by ur own.

Thinking Of You

2009-04-13T09:44:00.000-07:00

Katty Perry

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a treeI picked the ripest one

I still got the seed

You said move on where do I go

I guess second best is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

You'r like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy

With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lipsI taste your mouth

He pulled me inI was disgusted with myself

Was looking into...

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through

And bust in the door

And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Toyota Camry2.4(V)

2009-04-13T07:55:00.000-07:00

Walau!!!! This is my dream car it is toyota camry in pearl white colour. I like it very much.Muaxxx. I never feel bored when always talk about this car...hahhahah...but my fren sure feel very bored when i tell them tis car.u know how much of this car??

It is about RM 172,000 with insurance. not cheap rite??My fren told if wanna buy up this car then can go kahwin a rich man. He sure will provide me this car. This is a sporty type of Camry.They extents their front and back bumper spoiler so that its really look sport style. Besides, its extent their side skirting below the doors so that its look grand enuf.In addition, i like the front fog light very much especially when remodel the colour of the light from white to blue colour. after change the light colour its look like sport light. If can i oso wanna change the light to like BMW car(series 5). The light of BMW are like eclipse of the moon.Wah!!! super grand.hahahhaa...The part of this car that i most prefer is the 17 inches of tyres rims.Wah!!!! incredible.

okay!!!!if i sell out my lao beh car which is kelisa(2006). Then then money i will take it as my down payment for my dream car. so i assume my kelissa will sell on RM29000.Then i get loan from bank which means i borrow RM130,000. Then i assume the loan interest charge is abt 4.27%( The lowest percentage)per year. Then i will take abt 9 years or 96 months to clear all the loan.So every months i should pay RM1956.50 per month.walau!!! if my salary can gt RM 5000 per month then sure i will buy this car as my own present.

hahhaha....

All this are captured in illegal way:

The front view of this car.

The side view.Unfortunately its block by a tree.

The rear bumper spoiler.

The sporty rims.

my 1st blog

2009-04-11T20:14:00.001-07:00

This is my 1st blog and i dunno what to write over here.i knowing writing a blog is just like writing a daily but said it serious i never write a daily before even my primary teacher told us that writing daily everyday will improve our English language. i dun really follow my teacher taught, that why my English not that"pro". i just know "he she it you me they" only.i dunno how 2 pronouns some easy words. But now i do an amazing thing is i writing a blog in English but not in mandarin.U know y i dun1 write in mandarin??? because a lot of mandarin words i dunno their pinyin.hahhahah.Am i a Chinese educated???The answer is "of course i m".

But ...Why i dunno the pinyin??i oso dunno.I really don interested in this expecially in china history. walau... i always hope that i got diappear skill so that i can skip the lesson.But no choice i have stay in class.when teacher teaching then i FISHING in class.hahhahah...(understand??)sleeping lah...End up i m a FAILURE.